I don’t know what to do. I met a girl who introduced me to it nearly 2 years ago and I’m hooked. I really want to quit but the withdrawals are really so awful. I would rather blow my brains out than try to stop using again. I’ve been shooting up so often that I think it would be borderline impossible to stop. And to be honest I don’t want to. It’s the only moment where I ever feel relaxed or at peace. It’s hard to describe the feeling but it really is just euphoric.
But like I said it’s ruining my life. Trying to hide this while ive been living with my family has not been working and they know something is wrong. I don’t think they know it’s heroin but we are arguing a lot and I’m really so fucking sick of it. They’re threatening to kick me out but then I’d be homeless because there’s definitely nowhere I can go after that. I steal from them and I make them worry and I’m sick of it because we used to all be so close. I ruined my little sisters graduation because I woke up somewhere on the street and my parents had to come and get me. I really can’t quit, its not an option at all but I’m so sick of living this way please I really need help
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Heroin is destroying you and quitting is the only way to save what’s left. Face the pain now or lose everything forever.
Reach out to a mental health service and speak to them about getting on methodone. And, maybe consider mentioning it to your family so you clear that heavy void.
Are you for real bro? It’s 2025 there are plenty of easy solutions to this problem. Just get some kratom or suboxone and tough it out. THose things take care of 90% of the withdrawal, the rest is all mental.
you would rather look back and say you were addicted for two years than 5 or ten. two years is a blip. remember who you were before the drugs and know that the only way to go back is to quit. you definitely need to talk to supportive people while going through that process, or else a bad moment will hit and you’ll go back to the stuff.
I’d go to a church and tell them what’s going on and they could probably point you in the right direction for a rehab where you could probably get methodone which will help the withdrawals, sounds like your at that breaking point and you need to man/woman up (assuming your a man since a girlfriend got you hooked) and do it. You’re the only one who can do it, and you have to want to. It’s a dark grim path if you continue
Be honest with your family and ask them to help you get help. You deserve better and so do they. Withdrawals are hell but they are temporary. There is so much support out there. Don’t listen to the negative voices. You can do this!
The addict will only get better when they want to. Your family and friends need to know this
You have 3 options
1.rehab
2. Keep going down this path end up homeless
Or
3. Finish everything
Go to an NA meeting!! The 90 day program that most addicts use was designed for heroin originally :0
You need to go to a detox center that’s local to you.
Easiest way to do it would be to go to treatment center and do 30+ days. But in order for it to actually help you have to want it, if you dont its a waste of time. I’m in recovery and can speak to this personally
Mind me asking what country ur in?
At the pace you’re going you won’t last much longer if you don’t get help and quit. They have all kinds of things for withdrawal these days. I take bupanorephine for pain but that’s an offf label use.I know they are giving it to heroin addicts to help get and stay clean.
I shot dope 10 years ago for a decent stretch of time. During peak usage I was banging $300+ each day. Your mind is telling you the sickness is too bad but it’s not. I stopped without subs or detox or rehab. You really just gotta want to. Muster up all your will power and bend those rigs and dump your shit. If you want to quit you will. If you just feel bad and want reassurance you’re not a retard and it’s a real problem you might find that here, but it’s not gonna help you. The only person that can help you now is you. We can tell you 1000s of things, uplifting quotes of motivation, even offer our services to help…it’s not gonna do a bit of good till you really want it. “Boo hoo I’m gonna be sick for a week at max” gtf over it and nut up. I’ve lost too many friends and family and total strangers to be nice and coddle. I love you as much as I can human to human. Don’t look for solace, look into yourself and grab your guts. One day they’ll be no more days to try.
Prison or extensive rehab program where you have follow up with a job and a safe sober place to live for minimum 6-12 months after a 90 day detox. Please trust someone who was an addict, you’re not going to do this on your own.
Rehab. It saved me
I was in the same situation as you at barely 18. I was still in highschool, started using cuz of a guy. I left him but the heroin stayed, it was the only relief I got. Slowly my family noticed, I was living with them too- it strained our relationship, I also set a horrible example for my younger sister and we barely spoke as she got older. I stayed on it for nearly 6 years, my life became empty and bleak, I had no joy and no friends, eventually the relationship with my parents turned to silence and ignoring the problem even though I still lived with them. I was never homeless but even in that last year, I felt like opiates (fentanyl at this point) was all I had, the only relief in my life, even though it’d completely ruined everything and I barely felt any euphoria or good effects anymore, it was all just to maintain.
For me, after I lost my only friend and connection to the world, some months later I finally started leaving the house again, talking to people, realized that I was capable of having good things, and that hope and desperation led me to finally get clean last year. You don’t have to wait as long as I did. It’s hard to say anything that will get through to someone who’s addicted, especially when it still feels good- nothing stuck with me until I learned it for myself. I used to think about a phrase I saw, “I’ll change once I feel better/ill feel better once I change”- there’s never going to be a perfect time, it’s always gonna be hard. but that euphoria gets smaller and smaller so quickly, and everything else in your life that you enjoy, value, and care about will disappear or become empty and meaningless.
I really wish I’d tried to get sober when I first got the urge a year in, my life would be so much better today. When I did get sober I still felt like I didn’t fully want to, or I didn’t want sobriety enough, but my life has finally changed and I have good things again, I can feel and think clearly and connect with others, and all of that is so much more valuable and fulfilling than getting high. It’s really one or the other, it feels like you can have both or keep the things you like while using, but time will break it all down until the drugs is all that’s left.
Think about it seriously, at some point you will have to stop. Isn’t it better to do it now before the damage gets worse?
I’m really sorry you are going through this, I can’t begin to imagine. I won’t pretend like I do. But I know Jesus saved me from almost being hooked on hard opioids when I couldn’t take the pain. He also saved me from overdosing as my suicide plan. There is freedom in Jesus. I recommend watching this: https://youtu.be/gVnMUkohE1o?si=vw1JLvFDS-T7_Wzv
I will be praying for you. I’m here to listen as well.
🪦 RIP well see u on the other side. No one can help u, it’s ur choice. Think about it; what if u loose ur arm or leg? Wait until u can’t afford it anymore, and ur only choice is prostitution
You are lost. And you will not end up in a good place.
I would personally look into an inpatient rehab clinic. They’ll let you stay for 30 up to 90 days while helping you with addiction therapy, counseling, programs etc.
The best part for me was they will also get you set up MAT(Medication Assisted Treatment) Which is Suboxone or Methadone. Both of these will eliminate withdrawal symptoms for the most part.
Most decent rehabs will also be able to prescribe “comfort meds” you’ll need for things such as sleep and anxiety as well.
Hey, so I’ve been clean for about 8-9 months. I went to rehab for a month got out and relapsed instantly. That was my wtf am I doing moment. I was on it for about 4 years before that and felt like I was near death when the rehab facility put me in detox. 3 long and excruciating days of withdrawals and I was put on suboxone to taper off for a bit. I personally recommend trying to do with without meds as it’s easy to get addicted to trying to chase that high with medication like that. I’m going to be blunt with you. If it is destroying your life I feel for you. But you have now admitted you know what the problem is and what you need to do to start getting better. But until you personally decide you have had enough is when you will get clean. Withdrawals suck ass especially for herion and I know what it’s like. But you are gonna have to suffer a little to get over it there’s no way of getting clean with no symptoms. But I promise you I am so much happier than I was, I moved states away from my area, got a new job, and now am focused on making up for the lost time. Don’t get stuck in the cycle and please if you do get clean don’t ever think just one more time won’t hurt. I’m praying for you! Good luck and stay strong!
Remember the reasons why you need to quit. Remember that it’s not only destroying you but also your family. You can seek counseling or mental health service while you can. But you can also talk to your family that you’re addicted to heroin and you need help. Your family might be able to help you by getting you a mental health service or counseling or therapist.
Remember a few minutes, hours, or seconds of pain and agony, you will have a lifetime of glory and peace. Yes, recovering and getting over your addiction will be hell for you but recovering your addiction will reward you a lifetime of happiness and peace. Good luck mate I wish you all the best
Did you ever heard about kratom? It cured many opiates and opioid addict, check hamilton documentary on that, maybe this will help you, I never used opiate but there’s lot of testimony of People kickin the butt of their dependency and addiction with it.
I’ve lost a brother to heroin and almost two sisters who had OD multiple times. The pain never goes away and not a day goes by I don’t think of my older brother. What I’m going to tell you is you need to reach out for help admit you have a problem talk to your family and get together to have you put into a rehab. You can’t keep hiding it you need to come clean and let then know you have a problem. You’ll never get clean if you don’t want it bad enough, you need to not only do it for yourself but for your family. your life isn’t over believe me I’ve seen the worst addicts change their life’s and are now doing great things. But that is what I see from a lot of users, they think that they can never free. It isn’t easy but just like anything if YOU want that, you need to make the change NOW. Praying for you.
Read this a while back…foggy but hope you get the gist. University of West Virginia had just started a program where, with brain scans targeting the pleasure receptors in your brain; they then zap it…to dampen the desire. Apparently some notable success. Best to Google for more information informed info.
Yes you can. You can quit. You never stop quitting. The drug is keeping you from seeing how much you are loved and how great you can be! Fall down, get right back up! Don’t stop.
I saw this comment on another post on heroin I believe. “There is no old heroin users/drug users.” Get help before it consumes you.