I’ve said it to her a million times and she has agreed a million times, when it’s just us alone or with our close friends, we’re so happy. We’re like an old married couple. But the second we’re around other people, like in Uni or with family, it’s like we’re in the roughest of rough patches. We bicker, she asks for space, I overthink. It all just goes south. We’ve been together for a year now and have learnt that we are quite opposite, she likes her space and is quite “low maintenance” with occasional clingy phases, while I need constant reassurance and suffocate her with paragraphs and have very occasional space phases. But it works for us. A week ago though she went on holiday with family and we obviously spoke less. The distance made us a bit rough around the edges and eventually we had a talk about where we stand. I don’t know how we escalated so quickly but it turned into a conversation about one last try. One last try to beat the universe that seems to be against us being together (I’m not even being dramatic so many things cause us problems), or break up. And what sucks is I still love her so much. She said with the pressure of unsupportive parents and her own identity her feelings for me are wobbly but she doesn’t want to let me go. And I’m willing to fight for that chance. But still, when do we say enough is enough? Do we keep pushing in the hopes of one day being left alone, or do we give up now. I don’t wanna throw away something amazing based on a bad moment.
TLDR: We keep facing problems that are out of our control and we’re both slowly getting tired. Is it time to let go?