I feel like this decision is very overwhelming right now. I have found the perfect apartment, but if I move i will never be able to buy a house togheter, which was a dream of mine. I am also scared I will regret my decision. I do love him.
The reasons I want to leave are: -He wants kids and i dont -He smokes weed everyday (5 joints a day) -He doesn’t clean/cook often, I do it 95% of the time -Our sex life was dead for a whole year, but has been going well (2/3 times x week) these past few months after i had a conversation with him -I suspect a porn addiction that will come back eventually -We are not into the same things sexually -We live in an appartment that is too small and is suffocating me (he bought a building and we technically live for free in one of those appartments but i fucking hate it it’s tiny).
Besides that everything is good. We have been looking at buying a house for 8 months now and are unable to agree on what we want (he wants something fully renovated, i want something spacious with a big backyard and beautiful on the outside too). He says I’m mentally unstable because one day I want to move out and one day I want to stay. I mean it’s a fair point, i go from one to the other and just can’t decide. Now the perfect appartment is waiting for me to send my documents for a credit check and i am terrified and feel guilty. Help, what would you do in my position?
TLDR: I wonder if i should move out on my own or buy a house with my boyfriend