Feels like I’m starting over

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The past 5-7 years have been a whirlwind for me—healing trauma and dealing with the effects of it all, especially on my relationships. I have exhausted my partner and friends through the end of my 20s. I’m 33 now and I’m finally feeling myself mature and let go of a lot of toxic patterns, but I fear that I may have pushed a lot of people away during this process and I feel like my life is sort of starting over? Maybe it’s time to move away, make new friends and “start fresh” but is that ridiculous for someone that’s 33? Have i messed up and it’s too late? I wonder if anyone else has been through a similar situation and how was it for you? thank you for any support!

Comments

  1. Top_Management8468 Avatar

    I don’t think it’s ever to late to start over. Life is just a series of beginnings and endings and all the messy bits in between.

  2. MagicTurtle_77 Avatar

    Well im guy in quite similar situation, 29 and quite lost. Hope to see some positive answers here, cause I got none..

  3. inquistivebeaver Avatar

    There’s always time to start over! You got this!

  4. Shangirla Avatar

    I am in a similar situation at 41. Repressed childhood trauma took decades of my life until I started therapy and dealt with it. Now I’m about to graduate college, leave my not so great boyfriend, and move states. It feels like I’m growing up finally lol. I like to think of it as a new chapter or season. This is me and who I was always supposed to be; albeit a little later than others.

  5. Abject_Quality_9819 Avatar

    I didn’t move but emotionally moved away from my family. I am still with my husband but was angry about a lot of things from our past. I have done extensive work and made mistakes but I am finally seeing a better future. Some people saw the traumatized version of me- physical pain and emotional pain make for some fun times. As embarrassed as I am that people I didn’t trust saw that side of me, I have practiced deep compassion for myself. I think if they judge me, that’s on them as I know how badly I was struggling. It was part of my healing and the people who are still here never judged me to begin with. I still live in the same city but I am so far removed from toxic dynamic, including those in my immediate family, that I feel like a different person. I was reading my journal the other day and I have grown so much from my people pleasing and codependent tendencies.