You might cringe reading this but please bear with it T_T
So this all started from me being an idiot in high-school. Fell in Love with this girl. She used to talk to me about almost everything and I not only fell for her looks but her bright personality. She was amazing. But one day I was stupid enough to confess to her idk why I did that. Not only did I confess but it was a long message(and I really mean long, coz I never confessed to anyone before and so I didn’t know how to confess). I knew she would reject me and was prepared for it but she said she would think about it. At first I thought she said that just to be nice, but then she genuinely started acting differently towards me and started being close to me more and all that stuff. Even I couldn’t believe that it was really happening. Eventually the whole class found out I had a crush on her and I got teased for it a lot which I didn’t mind really. A few months went by then out of nowhere I found on her IG story that she got in a relationship with someone. I felt confused and devasted to say the least. But I didn’t know what else to do. It would be okay if she just said it to me that she didn’t want to be in a relationship with me instead of giving mixed signals and leading me on for months. I tried to move on and 2 years passed just like that. I think how cringe I was back then even know.
Now recently I got in college and I was shocked to find out that she got here too. She asked to meet up one day, we did and I found out she broke up with her bf, which was shocking coz they were really lovey-dovey. (also I stopped using Instagram so I couldn’t know). Anyway a few weeks went by and we met up frequently and I thought I had moved on but those feelings came rushing back again. One day I was out with some friends when she called me to know where I was and I told her we were in a cake shop, she told me she was craving dessert, so I bought one for her and went over to her dorm, she just accepted it and went back to her dorm,….just like that. Not even a full conversation. Recently there was an event happening in our college and we were supposed to go together. I waited for her a long time then we went there. After a few minutes she met a guy friend from her class and went away leaving me there. I just don’t know anymore. All my friends have been in multiple relationships and here I am who couldn’t even get together with the one girl I ever loved.
TLDR: Still in love with a girl in college after getting rejected in high school
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She has, since high school until now “given you mixed signals and lead you on.” Nothing is different. LEARN FROM YOUR PAST. Yes, stop being stupid.
“Stupid” isn’t the same as inexperienced and immature. She’s obviously never going to date and is clearly not above manipulating you into buying her things. So if you want to live a life free of feeling like her servant you’ll avoid her completely. Don’t be sucked in to where you drop everything to do things for her. She sees you as a malleable lackey, not a love interest.
She a maneater. Easier said than done but your brain has to be stronger than your heart. Move on from her, there’s nothing but pain there.
Everytime you got the idea “maybe this time will be different”, know that you are lying to yourself. If it happened once I could understand you feeling weird, but you must have learned your lesson by now.
You are at the best time of your life for doing stupid, cringe things and learning from them. But maybe it’s time for a different cringe thing.
Congrats on confessing, smarter choice than thinking about what could have been.
You’ve been carrying this for years… and it’s okay to still feel something, but clinging to hope when the signals are so mixed might just hurt more in the long run, you gotta focus on building your own life forward, not what you think she wants from you. Take a walk outside today, even if it’s just ten minutes, and let yourself breathe without thinking about her. You’re not alone in this, and one day you’ll realize how much stronger you’ve become from it all.
She knows you like her and she’s using it to take advantage of your kindness. She likes the attention, she doesn’t like you. It happens. Move on.