Let me start out by saying this I kind of had a messed up childhood from the beginning so it’s excuse my confusion with love I guess. I was SA by my dad when I was 6 or 7 so that didn’t help. But this is about my step brother well call him Jay. Jay and I were always kind of close. I guess when we were younger, I had two stepbrothers and my brother they all make jokes sometimes sexual. I being the youngest 3 years younger then jay who was the oldest I didn’t get the jokes a lot of time and jay would explain them to me this started when I was around 8ish whenever out parents moved in together. it started off innocent, and then, as I got older, it progressed to him grinding on me or he would tickle me and my head would go into his lap and his dick would be out for an example. It honestly never bothered me. I didn’t get a lot of good attention growing up from my parents so when he would give me attention, I was happy. It continued I’m not sure what age, but I eventually started sucking him. His family life on his mom side wasn’t the best so there was a period where we didn’t see each other for a few years fast forward to grade 10 he’s coming to live with us. I find out because he messages me while I’m in school all excited! From the age of 15 to 17 again we had “fun”. Four years I would suck his dick and we would act like it never happened. We were close when we were younger as we got older, he got distant into drugs, and he just kind of used me but I still liked the attention. I eventually get a boyfriend around 17. I was doing stuff with him for a little bit but then things got serious with my boyfriend, we ended stuff.
Fast-forward five years later, he likes one of my Instagram stories. We get talking again from there. I am now engaged with the same boyfriend as before. He’s single I believe he just ended a relationship over a little more of then a year we would have “fun” just in his car one time at my place. Yes, I cheated don’t judge. This is where my issue comes in where he was really nice in the beginning and then got really distant and didn’t want to talk to me but still wanted to hook up. He has now ended it because he got a girlfriend. We said are bye well he said “bye then I guess” which ugh I hate when people say I guess