All is lost in blink of eye and now having no Idea How to survive It

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Hello Users, I am writing this as a confession of my actions from last one Year, have lost almost 12 Lakh INR (In Forex Trading ) of my parents in which 2 lakhs were borrowed which have to be paid till 15th of April and currently no money is left with me and also not in position to tell my parents about it. Currently I am left with two options either to run away or to end everything once for all. Run away is not possible as am Having 0 amount with me and had to repay all the money. Please Help me recover from it Please.