am i a mean person?

The past two weeks of school have been so crap. My friend keeps on ignoring me and blaming me for little things. I understand a few days when she’s on her period and can be crazy angry and hormonal but now it’s over and nothing has changed. We do have exams and a bunch of assignments due which can account for stress but she’s only ever angry at me (or so it seems)

We have five classes together and yesterday we were having fun in math until we got our test scores back and she shut down and completely ignored me. Even today, it’s been bad. I assumed we were joking around in Bio and I playfully told her to shut up but she got so angry at me. She never seems this way around other people, just me. And all of last week she’s been telling me that I’m a mean person and I try to hide it. I’ve been thinking a lot about that and I’m afraid it’s true. I don’t have filters and say things that I genuinely think are nice but don’t come off that way.

I understand why she can be angry at times, in our art class we only have one charger at the back away from our table and I go to charge my chromebook there and sit with some other guys from our class. She claims I leave her alone, which I guess I do but she has other friends. She does the same in math and I never say much about it.

I’m really scared that I’m losing my friend. I’m scared that I really am a mean person and just don’t see it. I’m scared of everything that’s going on and I don’t know what to do. I might be reading too much into it but it feels like everything sucks.