I am a 20 year old girl and around the ages 6-12 I was terribly bullied by my classmates. I would spend most of my days alone but often I would try to play with the other girls and they would make me give them snacks and food so I could join in and even then I was still singled out in the group. I started bringing extra things such as loom band bracelets i made, figurines or Pokémon cards so they’d be nicer to me. Now I have been in a relationship for over two years and I constantly pay or the majority of the things and buy him gifts and surprises, really anything no matter the price even if I don’t have much in my bank account, I feel like even though I know he deserves these things and I want him to be happy, I feel a strong reason that I do this is because I’m deeply afraid of feeling alone and I am not good enough to satisfy someone with just myself, I also don’t have a lot of friends but I do the same to them too.