Me and my girl are about to turn 25 we been together for 4 years we both come from pretty toxic families so we’ve always had a plan to get our own and be independent which we tried to do back in 2022 and moved across the country to Florida it went well for awhile we out there for about a year and half living in hotels and cheap rooms which wasn’t bad for me I always look at the positive and the future, mind you I’m from a small town in PA as well my dream has always been to be something bigger then me and my area ya know whether it’s music art fashion acting entrepreneurship.
We ultimately left to Florida in 2022 because we lived with my mom but she was very toxic counting down the days until we had to leave having crazy outbursts for no reason so we left to Florida 6 months later my Step father gets ALS I’m still in Florida at the time things start going downhill asked to live with my brother who mind u lives in Florida in nice house always messing with new woman has 2 kids that he doesn’t even care for it’s just my whole family is pretty toxic im the youngest as well not saying I need someone as help but dang I was on my last leg and he said he’d rather me go back to PA and live with my mom which was bad disappointing but I took on the challenge thinking maybe my mom would be better now that my step dad is sick we can rebuild I can help out
also decided to get my CDL in 2024 but things still never changed with my mom she’s still toxic it’s like she only wants to control me now to help her with her husband and also now’s she’s talking about me taking care of her I don’t know it’s just toxic then my girls family talks shit about me not having money my girl is now pressuring me to get an apartment I wanna move back to Florida im about to turn 25 im only getting older and i know i have so much potential I just need to be in a better situation and environment, now im stuck with no money I don’t do cdl anymore cus I really don’t enjoy driving a truck I only did it thinking it be a quick easy Money grab idk what to do I wanna follow my dreams but I don’t wanna let family down even tho they have let me down numerous times now my moms holding 7k over my head saying if I help she will buy me a car with 7k i don’t know none of my siblings are around I have no freinds no real family im just stuck in a crazy situation and now my girl says she’s wants an apartment but we really don’t have money and my mom says she needs me
I honestly don’t know what to do or think sometimes I just feel like running away getting a plane and going ghost just always thought I’d be living in Florida or somewhere nice working on my goals and dreams I currently work at fed ex and have a lot of upside to becoming a manager or something idk my girl also pressures me into going back to CDL even tho I’m extremely depressed and can’t stop smoking I’m lost
TLDR: I really just need the best genuine advice feel like I can’t trust anyone.