What it says in the title. Ive debated it before but this time I made it halfway to the bathroom before I changed my mind and decided not to do it. I am overweight (170lbs at 5 foot 3 inches) and it shows. I have always had very strong cravings for particular foods since I hit puberty, and as you can imagine it made me gain weight. I always feel hungry and have issues with not wanting to waste food if I have some left on a plate, so I tend to over eat while justifying it in a number of ways. Ive debated making myself puke out of guilt for eating so much but I dont want to waste good food or the money I spent on it just because I cant control myself.
I havent made myself puke yet but I think I would have just now if I wasnt at work. I dont want my coworkers to potentially hear me. Im scared Ill do it when im at home, and justify it and make it not a big deal when I know its technically a symptom of an eating disorder