We have been dating for just under a year but it’s been very rocky since the beginning. He had only recently broke up with his abusive ex when we got together and didn’t tell me about the full extent of their relationship until after. Since then, we’ve had ‘arguments’ pretty much every other week, sometimes petty, sometimes serious. A lot of our initial ones were about our previous partners. And more recently, about how he gets defensive during our arguments and how we both feel unheard in the relationship. Each time we argue, we do try to work through it to some extent. We have reached a point where we both acknowledge how the way we react to arguments is causing the other to be emotionally unstable in the relationship, and have noted a way to go about it in future arguments, but haven’t had any further arguments to practice our solution yet.
The thing is, I feel like we focused so much of our time trying to work our fights out together that I forgot why I even started dating him and why this relationship was worth fighting for in the first place.
Another issue is the relationships he has with other women. This stems from my own insecurity from past relationships and my childhood. He says he purely converses with the women to study. The conversations are not flirtatious in nature. He has asked some for meals together and that’s about it. But my issue is that he doesn’t bring this up with me and he has never mentioned that he has a girlfriend to them. I also catch up with some of my male friends over meals or go to cafes, but they know I have a boyfriend and I always inform him before I meet them. I don’t know if I’m projecting or being hypocritical but I’m tired of always feeling anxious.
TL:DR; Do I try to work it out with my boyfriend one last time, based on the potential that we will both be more emotionally open in our next argument, and that we have grown emotionally? Or listen to my (possibly broken) intuition, given the way this relationship began and everything that has happened so far, and break up with him?
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Relationships are hard work to maintain, but they’re not hard to recognize you want to stay in one.
If you’re struggling to find a reason, be kinder to your partner and end things.