Don’t know where to go…

I don’t even know where to start.

I have been having this issue with my boyfriend for at least a little over a year. I am 25F and he is 35M. I came home from work one day and he was in our bed watching porn and jacking off.

I want to start off by saying that I DO NOT care that he watches porn. I know that every male alive watches porn, hell even I watch porn sometimes but I didn’t like walking in and seeing him in the middle of it when he knew I was on the way home. It made me feel so low and so bad.

We talked about it and I told him that it makes me feel bad to actively catch him jacking off before I get home and he could just wait for me. He said that I had been neglecting him for a few days so he had to do what he had to do… whatever. I told him that I was sorry and that I would initiate more if that’s what he needed.

After that, I made sure to start off sex. Grab his d**k, rub on him all day, all of that good stuff. I even started using the Flo app to document the times I started initiating (I know it might seem unromantic but i’m trying to give my partner what he asked for). We have sex like 4 times a week now, and at least half I initiate.

Since the first time, I have caught him over 10 times and at least twice, he has waiting for me to go to sleep, and then PAID $80 for CHATURBATE and proceeded to jack off with me in the bed sleeping next to him. I woke up and he said he was “just drunk” … the excuse he uses all the time. I don’t know what to do man. I give my all and he doesn’t think i’m attractive. He will leave the couch with me to go close the door and jack off to porn. and then say he thought I was coming in after him when he is caught.

Our lease ends in December and I just want to be done. I feel defeated and like he doesn’t even want me. What should I do?

TDLR; boyfriend would rather watch porn and jerk off than to have sex with me or be intimate with me.