Ended relationship and I’m lost

Hi WO30

31F

I broke up with my ex (32m) yesterday and I feel horrendous today and I know I will for a long time.
A couple of issues really, he could have a tempter in an argument (he’d never get physical) and shout and swear like a child and he couldn’t drive and we lived miles apart so it was a lot of me going to pick him up, he said for years he’d start driving so that we could live together but sadly he never showed any interest until the 25th hour by which time after 8 years of being told “I’ll start driving next year” I’d had enough of the broken promises and no initiative I ended it.

He called me some choice words, blocked me on everything. Which I deserved as I understood he was upset.

How the hell am I supposed to get over this?

The rose tinted glasses are on now.

He was kind most of the time but he just didn’t want to learn to drive enough so we could live together.

It’s quite humiliating telling others “Shane will be driving soon so we will be living together” only for me to have to make up an excuse.

Anyway, I’m thinking about how he always included me now and how he always asked me how I was feeling.

Ugh!!!