Feeling depressed without the constant chaos. What now?

I’ve was diagnosed with ADHD at 34 and have been medicated for just over a year now.

At first everything was amazing. I wasn’t frozen by executive dysfunction every day. My work performance improved. I stopped impulse buying and wasting all my money on nothing, and I have savings now. My apartment is much tidier. I organized my life and started making big plans for the future. Everything is just more calm and regulated and I make much more responsible decisions now.

But a year in, the novelty has worn off (and probably the initial euphoria of the medication if I’m being honest). I know that my life is objectively better, but I’m having a hard time finding enjoyment in anything. My life has been a series of impulsive decisions, reckless behaviour and irresponsible spending, because I was always hunting for the next dopamine hit.

Obviously there are many downsides to that lifestyle and my life was a mess because I was constantly searching for novelty and chaos. But it was also really fun and exciting and full of new and thrilling experiences.

Now that I don’t have the extreme highs and lows, nothing feels exciting anymore and I’m struggling to find joy in anything. What first felt like emotional regulation now just feels boring and dull. I feel like I’m boring and dull.

Even if you don’t have ADHD, have you been through anything similar? Leaving an exciting life behind for something more stable? How did you get through it? There has to be a happy medium between constant chaos and complete boredom but I don’t know how to get there or what it even looks like. Would love any advice or even just to hear from others who can relate.