I’m so sick of it but I have no idea what to do. I’m lost. Especially as I left a job where I would’ve been promoted, and probably quite liked but I had moved a few hours away to more expensive city. I feel like I screwed myself over because I don’t know where I could get that job where I live now.
Anyway, I can easily talk to someone one on one. I’m not bad at interviews. I have no problem doing my job. But when it comes to anything like bigger meetings, networking, etc I’m pathetic. I pretty much just don’t talk. I feel so awkward and have no idea what to say. Along with that, because I’ve found myself in basically an entry level job again and it’s in sales which obviously I don’t want to be a sales manager. But because I’m not loud and doing all this stuff, it’s harder. Plus it’s a good company with not too many people so not many openings. But I hate being this entry level sales support when I have a lot of good experience. Even more so, because I don’t really “own” anything I don’t feel like I know enough about whatever to have any input in bigger meetings. Also I don’t do a whole lot of work in the first place because of how my team is, and I have mentioned I’d do more too but even if I get something it’s not anything that I’ll feel like I’m an expert or can take control and be noticed.
I feel like I’m so obviously in the exact wrong place but I have no idea what to do. I just want some mid level job where I can do my thing, I’ll talk about that and everything just fine. I even had a job before where I worked with lots of teams and liked it, I just do not want any attention I don’t want to jump in to say things, etc. BUT if it was my area, my thing, what I do every day and manage then if I had to I could. also I work remote which I like but I wonder if coming in to work maybe once or twice in the office would be better (but not an option at my job now) because maybe that’s why suddenly having an in person all day meeting kills me too.
ANYWAY anyone else have similar problems and find a job that works really well for them?