I just wanted to ask you all because I’m losing hope.
My light is dimming. I don’t want to wake up tomorrow. I really don’t.
I’m 36(F) and have been with my husband for 15 years, married for 12.
Back in 2022 I discovered his affair. We have three children together and because of an all around work, education and therefore income disparity as I had to pause my own personal development to raise our children all over the states and overseas (military) – I stayed in the marriage. He promised it would end, it never ended. The other day I found out he has his affair partner set up in an apartment right outside the gate from where we are stationed, like the next town outside of the military post.
We had already left the first time but he kept pleading it would be different. It never changed. Never. The same girl since 2022, but this time it seems she has become a permanent resident, and no longer one who visits or whom he visits overseas.
Please don’t scold me for staying. There are so many reasons why I need to stay, when everyday I wish I could just run away from here with the kids. Please someone give me light in this darkness that is my life. Please give me hope. I had always talked to my parents or grandparents for these issues, but I cannot this time around. I can’t say a word. I don’t know what to do. Please tell me there is light at the end of this. Pleas give me something to hold on to.