It’s been about 4 days after my late wife funeral it really hit me that day, I couldn’t be strong and I just broke down, had a private viewing to see her all dolled up including the outfit we got for her, I placed many photos and memories to be burned when she’s cremated, just seeing her lifeless body again made me relive all the bad things and the good things with her I gave her one last kiss on the head before the others went to see her, during the tributes alot of people spoke and knowing she has touched many hearts alot of sorrow the one I never expected was my nephew and that tribute of his broke my heart 🙁 also knowing she can never see her daughter grow 🙁 never made it to her first mother’s day…. The slide show of her with the photos and seeing her from when she was born and with everyone including us I wanted her back so badly…. Fuck that hospital that failed her!!!! ….. I was the last one to speak I mentioned how we met and throughout our journey the laughter the sorrow knowing she will always be in our hearts and end of service to play the version of shelter that I wanted at our wedding and putting heart notes on the casket before blowing out the candle. I just want her back I miss the little things hearing her voice, being in her presence knowing that I come home to her and our daughter it feels empty on her side of the bed… I’m done all I have left is our daughter that has my late wife and me in her knowing things are different now the hardest part is clearing the draws and cupboards that her clothes and other things…. :'(
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Sending you and your daughter an internet hug. Keep some keepsake stuff for your daughter, you wife’s favorite items, jewelery and other little things that shows her little quirks. Your child will appriciate this as they can look at the different things growing up and ask about what this was for her mother and you.
I’m so very sorry for your loss. Take your time to grieve your beautiful wife and the life you planned. Care for this wound to your heart and soul. Lean on people around you.
You don’t have to clean out her stuff now. Do not let anyone tell you it has to be done at any certain time. When you are ready select what things of hers you want to keep for your child like her jewelry, wedding dress and anything else that is special. Pictures for sure. Please take your time. Get someone you trust to help you and put her stuff away where no one can get to it and save it for your daughter. When your daughter is an adult that’s all she will have left of her mother so please do this carefully.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Lean into family and friends who can support you in your grief. You don’t have to think about long term right now; just focus on making it through each day, hour by hour. It’s okay to fall apart sometimes. As long as you can be present for your daughter when she needs you, you’ll make it through.