Gang I think I’m gay

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I think I’m gay gang

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So I went to boarding school for a while and one day on the weekend it’s just me and this guy, we talk, we joke and it ends up with us touching each other a little

I’m confused because it felt good and so I asked if that was kinda gay, and he said nah because it would feel good anyway (True but also why was I in that situation in the first place?)

We heard a door and get scared someone is coming so we stop.

But I realise looking back I don’t regret it in fact I regret not kissing him

I think I started to like him because I wanted to be near him, in essence I wanted to be his boyfriend but I didn’t know that, I thought I just liked him as a friend. The only reason I didn’t talk to him more is because we did that and it was awkward especially because we never talked about this again, we never talked about this.

I only remembered this because of a dream I had where I had a date with a boy and he became my boyfriend, and when I woke up I was a bit sad that it was a dream, he treated me like a princess and made me feel loved.

So that made me realise I might be gay… and I also realise that I have so internal homophobia because like idk if I’m ok with being gay because idk the dynamic seen is gay relationships aren’t for me ig? Like I think I like men but I don’t want a gay relationship if that makes any sense (it probably doesn’t)

Comments

  1. AFxxn1_3 Avatar

    Dw I see where you’re coming from about the last part especially, I’m in a similar situation and I want to just date whoever I am attracted to but I don’t wanna be seen as part of the lgbtq, I don’t mind the whole idea of a man dating aan etc, but the idea of associating myself with a group of people who for the most part, attention seek and are just annoying, isn’t my thing, which is why I haven’t come out properly yet

    I hope this kinda gives you a bit of an understanding??

  2. ArtisticRiskNew1212 Avatar

    If you’re also still into women you can be bi. I find saying I’m bi makes me feel bettwr

  3. camwtss Avatar

    aw this is cute. i always tell people that you like what you like, its simple as that. being gay is when youre exclusively attracted to men, which i assume isnt the case for you. i think labels are annoying, but unfortunately, thats how society is.

  4. Dr_Strange3000 Avatar

    No .You are not gay .. you simply just gave up the usual ways that demands effort required to pleasure yourself and chose the easier pleasurable other way not requiring any effort .. also, maybe that is also because you got bored of being straight, and your mind is trying to find a new path of dopamine even if it’s not the usual way . Chillax .. it also might be a high rise in testosterone levels because of high dopamine level .. yes .. when we are happy .. we are horny sometimes without us realising .. mind is a complex thing .. try to understand it .. never put yourself under any definition that easily before you understand yourself very well first .

    Keep down voting .. yall know the secret word to this whole nonsense ( you people are transgressing )

    Seeing no one replying and only down voting says a lot .. giving up to desires shuts off the mind and logic .. which in return shuts the pathway of the ability to discussion .. as discussion only happens between civilised mindful people with common sense . It was all lost just for some happy time .. poor yall .. sometimes, I feel sad for yall .. more than feeling angry towards yall ..

  5. BoyGrapes Avatar

    Sexuality is a spectrum, gang

  6. FrankieBloodshed Avatar

    Be gay, it’s awesome. I love it

  7. romeoinacoma Avatar

    Congrats bro now go suck a woogie for the rest of us.

  8. Asanufer Avatar

    Live your life as you see fit no judgement on my part. Just be happy with yourself.

  9. BleachedFly Avatar

    be yourself gang <3

  10. MoneyMikeSavage Avatar

    Labels and terms can be restricting to others or freeing for the rest. No need to label anything if you don’t want to. I prefer sexually fluid, cuz yeah I’d have sex with pretty much anyone, but that doesn’t translate over to my romantic life. Or maybe it’s not so cut and dry for you. Basically, who gives af what others say, just do you and be happy.

  11. GamerZackery Avatar

    That’s cool man.

  12. ROMPEROVER Avatar

    You might be gay curious. Dont be hard on yourself.

  13. CodifyMeCaptain_ Avatar

    You are still questioning. You might be gay. Might be bi. Maybe neither! Either way it is all perfectly fine! Explore it safely and consensually and see how you feel after:)

  14. SilkyAlchemist Avatar

    Ay bruh, whatever! Do you!

  15. lex_93 Avatar

    You should find Christ

  16. NoOnesKing Avatar

    That’s cool man congrats

  17. Tedlikethebear Avatar

    Well life goes on.

  18. sawyer7717 Avatar

    Being gay is a sin man. I wouldn’t go down that road but I also can’t control you, make good decisions

  19. zecaramel32103 Avatar

    Tell him how you feel

  20. s8den Avatar

    This so cool gang

  21. SlimJesusKeepIt100 Avatar

    I ain’t even need to read the entire thing. No straight man getting sexually excited at the thought of touching another man. No straight man gonna touch up to another man on some serious junk

  22. Leather_Flan5071 Avatar

    Talk to the guy. Don’t make this something you might regret.

  23. psykorean5 Avatar

    Hey! You’re halfway out of the closet! As a straight person, I welcome you to the fabulous world of the gay world! Now, be proud and don’t doubt yourself whether you are straight or bisexual!!! No matter what your internet peeps here on reddit will be there cheering you on!

  24. ICT_Marie Avatar

    It sounds like you have a preference. You and the guy were in the right place at the right time and it felt good. No shame there.
    You’re not alone in regret though. In high school I had a female friend invite me in while she bathed. Talking and asking me for stuff for her in the tub. Stating that she’s cold and thinks she’s ugly and I’m just there like “no you’re not”, “here you go”, and my favorite “no, your tits didn’t look lopsided”.
    Ten years later, I dreamed about it and realized she was coming on to me and had instant regret and realized how dumb teenage me was.
    To go back in time to that teenage girl again telling her to go for it and hop in the tub.
    Sexuality is a spectrum. Go for what feels right.

  25. SpecialBeam22 Avatar

    Congrats on coming out gang!

  26. TOMATENSALAT_HD Avatar

    In german we would say: ein bisschen Bi schadet nie!
    Edit: typo

  27. urmyfcinnamonapple Avatar

    Listen, it’s okay first off. You’re completely valid in how you’re feeling. Not knowing who you are is scary, and that’s okay.

    Idk how old you are, but you have the future to fully put a label on what you are. I personally panic when I think about my labels, so I don’t think about it. As long as everyone’s safe and legal and consenting, just enjoy. You have a lifetime to put a label on you ❤️

  28. urmyfcinnamonapple Avatar

    Just know, no matter what you are it doesn’t matter to anyone else. If they judge you for it, it just shows their level of maturity. Just take care of yourself op and don’t let others dictate how you feel. You’re amazing and valid either way

  29. beesknees4011 Avatar

    Being gay doesn’t mean you need to prance down the street with a dildo glued to a football helmet, it’s totally ok to like men and not take part in gay stereotypes lol. You can be just as you are now and just like men. Doesn’t need to change anything

  30. mysteriouslypuzzled Avatar

    You’ll figure it out for sure after the first inch🤷🏻‍♂️

  31. Senior-Bike-2886 Avatar

    If you’re questioning it then you are

  32. Unlikely-Database-27 Avatar

    Men can be yummy, gang. Women still drive me wild tho. Its aight you don’t have to tell anyone a label or anything. Not like its their business who you do or don’t think about banging.
    It happens behind closed doors for a reason. Unless you’re uh, into being watched then I guess you do you.

  33. AwkwardConflict5430 Avatar

    I’m sad (no homo)

  34. stereofidelic89 Avatar

    You will eventually settle into the idea of it all the more you allow yourself. It’s like riding a bike.

    Second thing: YOU GET ONE LIFE. Go and tell him how you feel. HOWEVER, if you don’t want to risk losing the friendship, just be honest and say hey man, lets hang out again. And next time you take control, take it a little further, see his reaction and don’t panic if he gets weird, just play it off like a goofball vibe and keep it moving – like he did.

  35. NGU95 Avatar

    Switching teams? All good.

  36. JVCommunications Avatar

    ngl bro, thats kinda gay