I’ve had the year from hell. I lost my career in 2024 and have been fighting to keep myself afloat. My roommate unilaterally decided to break the lease on Monday and already moved out. Every bill is in my name and I’m behind on absolutely everything, to the tune of thousands.
My cats are the only thing that are keeping me going, and I don’t even know how I’m going to take care of them anymore.
My mom died last year of COPD our family chose to do at home hospice so my mom died at my childhood home. I am going to be getting evicted and the only place I have to go. Is that home where not only my mom died, but my Abuelo died and my uncle committed suicide by gun! All within in the last two years. My mental health is already terrible and I’m having explosive manic episodes.
I don’t think I could ever spend more than one night in that house and I have nothing and no one. I spend all day entirely alone and nobody checks on me.
I’m terrified that if I move back into that house, I will also die there. All I’ve been thinking about since Monday has been that I would rather die in this apartment. When I moved into this apartment, I had income stability, friends family everyone was healthy and I was OK. I have lost everything since then I can’t do it anymore.
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Make sure you give the cats a good home first!
Please, please do not make a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please set some food out for your cats and go to the emergency department and get some help. They are equipped to deal with these situations. They will help you, and put you in touch with social services. You MATTER, you are important, please do not harm yourself, there are options!
Just ride it out it will get better. Don’t give up.
I’d suggest trying therapy before you make any rash decisions. Life isn’t always easy but if you want it to get better it will. Celebrate small wins and I hope you come out mentally better on the other end.
Sorry for your losses.