Im 27 female. Got married at 24. Have very conflicting feelings about it.
My husband is loving many times, but there are a lot of moments that have me wishing I could go back in time. Ive never had any other relationship and I do not know whats normal in a marriage.
I work full time and am still expected to carry the weight of everything at home. Housework, meals, trash, even the mowing most weeks. He does work overtime hours many weeks (4-12 more hours than me, depending on the week) so that apparently justifies why I have to do everything. And i feel like i could live with that if we were happy, but many days we are not happy. His yelling and raising his voice, slamming doors, punching objects, throwing stuff has only gotten more common. Its not an every day occurrence, but happens enough to just bring me down. And he refuses to apologize after and expects me to just get over it and act like it never happened. I cant list a single time he has apologized. And forget asking for advice- the advice is always “communicate with him!” and when i do i either get ignored, i get told im irritating him, or he will slam the door and raise his voice.
Sex feels like its fully for him. The few times that ive not really been into it has resulted in a fight or pouting. Its my bad for not wanting to be groped in the middle of the night while im sleeping. Refuses to wear condoms and is pushing for a baby- so im stuck taking the pill forever.
I hate living in the south and wish a woman in my life had told me the reality. I will always warn women of the reality. Always. I feel like a part of me has been stolen. I dont know how to get her back.