After a very bad breakup i’ve came to the realization I can’t be this person anymore. No one is going to save me and so i need to be the one to step up and take initiative. I am addicted to self harm and gore and I constantly compare myself saying im not “sick enough” after my boyfriend broke up with me I attempted suicide via hanging. Ever since then, I’ve realized how incredibly fucked up I am. This week alone I’ve completed cut out any bad people, i have started working out, eating healthier, started going to bed at a reasonable time, stopped watching gore, limited what i watched ect ect. and so far, I’m seeing improvement. My mood is actually better so far. I am not insecure about my looks or anything like that, i’m not doing this to look better, I’m trying to build a healthy relationship with myself now, because I can’t depend on other people to help me. The most important relationship i’ll ever have is with myself and I’m actually doing it. I have been feeling more like me than ever before. My depression is getting better.
Another thing i need to work on is being a better person in general, I honestly have a bad habit of guilt tripping and manipulating. This is because I lack empathy. But i don’t want to do that anymore. I want to acknowledge people and their struggles instead of only focusing on myself. I want to be a better person because right now i’m an asshole. I just don’t know where to start. I guess that’s something i’ll need to work on in therapy.
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You’re making progress. Cutting out bad influences, improving habits, and owning your actions are key steps. Therapy will help. Keep it up.
KEEP GOING! Proud of you, stranger. You’re awesome! Don’t focus too much on the end goal; sounds like you have multiple small wins to celebrate!
OP keep going everyone is this group is rooting for you!
Keep doing what you’re doing and you’ll keep getting what you’re getting. Sounds like you’re well on your way!
This is really admirable…
You’re on the right track keep this going don’t stop.
Your future self will thank you. Pain is only temporary.
All you need to do is keep it consistent and 6 months from now you’ll be a whole new person
Don’t relapse you will regret it so much…
I’m proud of you!
therapy did help me a lot
I am so proud of you.
You are doing amazing, you are definitely on the right track! I started therapy about a month ago for different reasons, but I have really noticed a difference in how I feel and I am slowly starting to change things, but not for anyone else, for me!
Your honesty is incredibly powerful. The fact that you’re taking real steps cutting out toxic habits and people. Showing up for yourself, and committing to change says a lot about your strength. Healing is messy and nonlinear, but you’re doing the hard work, and that deserves so much credit. It’s okay not to have all the answers yet. What matters is that you’re moving forward, and that’s something to be proud of.
You’re doing everything right. Good for you. And it’s true, no one is coming. YOU gotta do this. And you are. It’s a process, so keep going!
You’ve got lots of folks cheering for you just in this comment section!
Good on you recognizing what needed work and putting the effort into it. Wish my ex would do the same after destroying me and her other ex. Best of luck!
Remember, we are all creators of our own circumstances. You have the ability to change where you are and take time to reflect on how you got here. A thought I’d like to pass on is regarding the information you consume. The garden grows where you water it.
You’re moving in a good direction! Keep up the good, hard work.