TLDR: gf refusing medical treatment for her medical issues, don’t know how to be supportive
Edit: sorry this is posted from another subreddit because im so desperate. The other subreddit had photos of our texts and stuff. She basically was just giving up and saying really suicidal things and started writing her will. Her hcg just went up by 10 and that’s it, I really think it’s an easily treated issue but idk.I see how she doesn’t want to go through more medical trauma though so I understand.
So, she’s been going through a lot since June. Been admitted to the ER twice because her hcg levels kept fluctuating and she was bleeding a lot & having cysts burst etc. She stopped seeing her gyno about 3 weeks ago due to an altercation they had, and she got her blood work done and saw her hcg went up again after it was going down steadily recently. These are the texts afterwards. TW-suicidal words
Also, she usually always talks about dying and stuff when she’s really stressed and going through stuff with her mom. Whenever her and her mom fight it sends her down a dark hole. They’re currently fighting now on top of this, and I feel like no matter how supportive I try to be, I get shut down but it’s understandable.
I cuddled her last night and we were chilling, having a good time making food and then the dog fight happened and she’s been pretty much MIA all day saying these things. Ive called lifeline already multiple times on her, and I know the drill and I don’t think she’s a harm to herself. But I just feel like an a-hole because I guess it seems like im not doing enough? I mentioned getting more help in person yesterday and she got angry so im just going with whatever she says at this point and supporting it, because she’s obviously still reacting harshly emotionally and having a bad trauma response to all of this news, im pretty sure she’ll be level headed again in a couple days, though hearing her speak like this and writing her will is kinda of frustrating to me bc it makes me sad.