GF made me want to cheat on her

I was with her for a year and half. She’s been through so much trauma from when she was young. SA, bullying, always been cheated on in every relationship, separation from her family for years when she was young.

She has gotten to the point where she developed a kink from being cheated on. She says the “thrills of finding out being cheated on” was a turn on. The adrenaline. All of her exes cheated on her, and even though they did, whenever we broke up twice in the past (she carried over an impulsive behaviors from the past, but I was willing to work with her), she would go text them and even flirt when we were broken up.

I started questioning myself: “Do I need to cheat on her to feel truly loved by her?”.

I realized shortly after that’s not the type of person I am. I would never do something like that to a person, and I realized how toxic the relationship truly was.

Even though she started getting therapy 3 months ago, I let her go. I honestly became disgusted with who I was after the relationship. I broke up with her. I really wish her the best with her recovery and she gets the love she deserves.