Girlfriend acting distant

Girlfriend started to act distant

I am [23M] and my girlfriend is [21F] we’ve been dating for a year and now she has suddenly started to act really distant and different, she keeps on saying that I never put in any efforts but the truth is I am doing the best I can right know, we argue we fight but in the end she always comes up to me and says that she really appreciates what I do for her. But now she’s started to say that she’s bored of me bored of this relationship and when I ask her to specify or try to talk about it and fix things, all she says is that what’s the point of fixing it there is no solution let’s just go with the flow, or she says that she doesn’t want to fix it. But today something felt really off, we have each other’s Instagram account and I usually don’t go through her account but I did today, and I saw that she had looked up one of her previous talking stages and added some guy on her cfs recently. Not trying to think much about it, but I really don’t want to lose her. And even if something happens we see each other in college every day and I won’t be able to stand it, I want her but I don’t think that she wants me anymore.

Edit: Might sound crazy and really stupid and ik its too early for me to think about all this but I really want to spend the rest of my life with her, it was a date to marry pact for us and we thought about it a lot before we actually started dating but after that, I found out that she lied to me about her past, when I called her out she put it on me she speaks to me really rudely and treats me like trash but I still stay, when I call her out she always puts it on me and its always my fault, she apologises and does the same thing again. She pushes me to my limits. And if by chance I’m having a bad day and if there’s even a little change in my tone, suddenly I’m the bad person who mistreates her and never does anything right. Every argument so far has been me calling her out for her behavior and her completely flipped the script on me and it always ends with me crying and apologizing, she has never been able to give me closure or comfort while I am always there for her whenever she needs, she says that she loves me but her actions speak louder. She keeps on blaming her past to get away and avoid accountability. But I can’t seem to leave, and every time she threatens to leave, it’s me who goes after her crying and begging. I feel like shit but Idk why I can’t stop myself. I can’t help it. She says that she’ll never actually leave me and that I’m her home but one minor inconvenience or her day is bad and its her wanting to end this and me going after her and later she says that she likes it when I do that and it makes her feel loved, when I get angry she literally does not care at all for her I can’t have emotions or express myself I’m just there to comfort her all the time, she doesn’t even see me as human.

TL:DR Girlfriend acting really distant and knows that’s we’re not okay and still doesn’t want to fix things. Plus looked up one of her previous talking stages on Instagram.