Hi Reddit, I don’t really know where to begin because the pain is still raw, but I just need to get it out somewhere. I (20F) was in a medium-distance relationship with a guy (20M) for like one year and a half. What started as the most beautiful connection turned into my worst nightmare.
He was charming, witty, and emotionally open in a way that disarmed me. We’d talk for hours, share our fears, dreams, deepest insecurities He told me I was the person who “turned him from a boy to a man,” that he had never felt this way about anyone, that I was “the one.” He’d call me his soulmate, and I genuinely believed him. Then 6 months later i found out that he was a player. That he was a walking red flag and lied to me about everything. But i still stayed because i had fallen for him deeply, and he made me believe he’s changed for me. Once, I even found out the nudes he sent me weren’t even his — they were downloaded. I didn’t confront him. I just… let it go. We spent sacred, intimate time together. We prayed at temples. He waited for me at airports. We made plans, he said he wanted a future with me, a home, kids. And still… he cheated. He was active on Bumble, chatting with multiple girls, flirting shamelessly, and eventually sleeping with one. When I found out, he confessed that he had been “lowkey tired” of the relationship, and cheating gave him an ‘escape.’ Can you imagine hearing that from someone you were willing to spend your life with? AND AS IF THIS WASN’T ENOUGH, he mocked the whole situation on Twitter, making jokes about cheating in exams and relationships. He glorified it. No remorse. No apology. He pretended like he never even cared.
I feel so broken. I have panic attacks. I wake up with anxiety. I cry in the shower. And the worst part? He’s out there, swiping, flirting, thriving… while I can’t even bring myself to trust people anymore.
I gave him everything. My loyalty. My body. My soul. And all I got in return was trauma. If you’ve been through something similar, please tell me it gets better. Because right now, I feel like I’m drowning.
— TL;DR: Was in a long-distance relationship. He said all the right things, promised me forever, met my family, cheated on me with multiple girls on dating apps. Mocked it all publicly. His own friends are disgusted. I feel used, broken, and lost