Growing up as the only white boy in my family and in one of the most dangerous places in the US AMA

Im 23m and have moved away but I grew up on the South Side of Monroe, Louisiana—the most dangerous city in the U.S.. My mom was a junkie, my dad junkie pimp that let cash rule I was abused and bounced through foster homes and juvie until my teens. Both parents died when I was still a kid.

But through all the chaos, I was taken in by a Black family. My pops is Black, my GG is Black, and my brothers are Black and mixed. I was the only white boy in a house full of love, pain, and survival. I didn’t just grow up around Black culture—I lived it.

I’ve seen the worst of the system, and I’ve seen how it chews up people of color. I know what it’s like to feel lost in between two worlds—never fully fitting into either.

Since traveling the last couple years east to west coast I’m struggling to find my identity or how to truly express myself without fear of being misunderstood. How do I find myself not my environment or the traumatized influence personality how can I find myself in this confusing time?? Will I ever feel truly accepted from both parties ?? you’ve ever felt stuck in your identity or had to survive in a world that wasn’t built for you, ask me anything. I’m open to talking about anything—from my family to growing up in the streets.