Had my first actual meal after days of eating dog food to survive. AMA

I know it sounds absurd and if someone have told me that Ill be eating dog food to survive after draining all my savings to save my dog, I’d probably wont believe them but here I am. I dont regret spending every money that I have to have more years with my dogs but lately I was on the struggle bus that not a single day goes by without thinking of something dark to do to myself.

This is probably shallow for some but I’ve eaten pasta last night and let me tell you, it was the best fucking meal Ive ever had after days of pasting and having to eat dog food to stop my stomach from making sound.

I’m gonna have to go on fasting again and probably eat dog food again for the next 3 weeks till i get my paycheck but eating that pasta, I was reminded that there’s hope and not everything is despair. I wanna stay optimistic again and keep telling myself that it will get better. I’m just trying to stay positive that maybe eating dog food would give the ability to speak to my dogs which is a fair trade (just being silly). Im just genuinely happy right now.