The kind you see in animes when something absolutely horrific happens.
Its the kind of scream you always feel is just waiting to be let out but most of the time you just cant find the energy to do so.
Ive always imagined the stress of everything would get to me eventually.
I broke down in my car, crying, was grabbing and pulling at my hair, screaming so hard my throat was raw, if anyone heard me they wouldve definitely called the police thinking I was getting stabbed or something.
Thought i was going to pass out from the lack of air but i didnt.
Im at least grateful i had the luxury to let it out
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I hope everything is ok OP. 🩵
Once in college, I went into the bathroom in the middle of the night, opened the window that looked out on the quad, put my head out, and I screamed as loudly as I possibly could for as long as I could. Then I rested my head on the ledge and cried out my remaining tears. Nothing ever came of it, but it was cathartic at the moment.
I came here to say yes I do this daily but after reading your example, I’ll have to go with sometimes. My daily scream is more of a loud groan now that I think about it. Just to get out my daily frustration of being over worked, under paid and over stimulated at least 3 times a day.
I spend most of the time really grateful for what I do have but I firmly believe we all deserve better than this. I also spend a lot of time fighting back in ways I’m capable of doing on my own. It’s exhausting.
That sounded like that came from somewhere deep. Do you want to talk about?
Yes, several times. I totally understand. (HUGS), OP. 🫂
Yes. Last year a few times. It was very hard times for me, and I tried ending my life a couple times. 988 (suicide hotline) helped me, and I’ve been in a lot of therapy. Things are a lot better now than they were.
At one point, I was rolling on the sidewalk outside of my psych Dr’s office screaming from the soul. Truly humiliated myself. Police came and stuffed me into an ambulance and off to the psych hospital I went.
Yes, the day my boyfriend died I starting wailing like an insane woman. I had never felt so much pain before. It felt very primal.