he raped me. i remember that look in his eyes when he was doing it. devoid of all emotion but so angry at the same time. i don’t know how to love properly because of him. he destroyed me. i have awful attachment issues, i walk on eggshells all the time, etc. i’m just now realizing how bad he was
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I’m sorry this happened to you, didn’t the enemy win by hardening your heart, instead seek Jesus and watch your heart transform like a true miracle, can I pray for you?
I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through. These realizations can be excruciating. Just know that you’re in no way ruined. Not at all. Yes, you’re wounded, but there things we can do to tend to our wounds to help them heal. You may still have scars in future, but you can still live a big, beautiful life. You deserve it <3 There are some really great books on healing our attachment wounds out there, and there should be resources in your area for sexual assault survivors. I really hope you’re able to connect with the supports you need and deserve!
You’re not ruined I promise. You feel ruined but thats not the same. Survivor to survivor, this won’t control you forever. It does now and that’s awful and understandable and unfair and wrong. You are not what he did to you
I’m so sorry but I could have used a trigger warning for immediately starting with the R-word…
Healing is always within reach. Just take a small step, any step