I don’t know who I will see this, but I just wanted to confess this to someone I don’t feel comfortable talking about it to anyone I know. I don’t feel comfortable really expressing how i feel in person. I’m an 18 M and throughout my 18 years of life I’ve never once had a girlfriend I’ve come close one time just to be told she doesn’t like me like that I don’t think I’ll ever find anyone and recently I’ve felt my loneliness has been building. I don’t know why I feel this way. I just wanna find someone who will love me. I don’t have much time anyways to try and date anyone I feel like because I don’t want to get that close again and then be cut down. I don’t wanna feel that pain in my heart again. I don’t know why I’m so lonely. I’m getting ready to leave for Boot Camp this summer and I just don’t understand why I feel this way. I don’t think I have ever been told whole heartedly that someone loves me. I see TikToks of couples and dream of something like that but knowing I never will experience true love. I feel like it’s too late for me and maybe I should just give up all my other friends have loving girlfriends but I’m the only one who doesn’t. I want to tell someone but I don’t want to be judged. Am I the only one that feels this way? I just really wish I had someone who loves me