How do I get over the disgust and regret of a hook up?

Prior to about an hour ago, I (M21) had 3 bodies, and they were all in loving relationships.

I’ve been single for 1.5 years, much of that was spent getting over my ex, and recently decided I don’t want anything serious but felt like I had a physical need that needed to be met.

So I went crazy on the dating apps, putting together a “roster” as the kids say, and tonight met up with a girl from tinder who was down to hook up.

I get there, she lets me in, we do the deed. I don’t know if catfished is the right word, but I was attracted to her pics and was not very attracted to her in person. She barely said a word to me the entire time.

I got in the car and had a very long and uncomfortable 30 minute drive home.

I realized that sex being an expression of love is a huge value to me, and having meaningless casual sex was an absolute betrayal of my identity.

I am disgusted with myself and feel grimy and ruined. I don’t think a shower would make me feel clean right now. I think I now realize I was grappling with the fact that I’m incredibly attention starved, and I crave love despite being unavailable to it right now.

I’m sitting outside looking at the stars full of regret, wishing it never happened. How the fuck do I move on from this?