TW: Attempted suicide
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I drive a huge SUV.
I was getting ready to get on the off ramp on the interstate at about 10:00pm going 55mph and a young woman threw herself in front of my car.
I hit her. She’s alive and stable, but I feel like I’m breaking. I know it’s not my fault. I know there’s nothing I could have done. But Every time I close my eyes it plays over again. My brain fog is so bad it took me almost two minutes to calculate 20 percent.
The responding officers were so gentle and kind, and the medic told me that she told them she was trying to end things.
I DGAF about the damage to my car. That what insurance is for. I have bruises from the seatbelt , but that’s about it.
I’m desperately hoping she can the help she needs, but I am not okay right now.
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Wow, that’s so intense. ((((Hugs))))) I’m so sorry this happened! Keep talking about it as much as you can, try not to shut down…..
Please play Tetris as soon as you can. ASAP. Tetris specifically makes your eyes follow a pattern that is the same as CBT therapy, and it helps the part of the brain that is in charge of memory and PTSD. You can google it, there’s been a bunch of medical studies on it.