How do I sleep when my body won’t let me?

I hate being awake, so I’d honestly just rather not. I can’t kms because my family would fall apart, so now instead of that I’m choosing to give up and be asleep as much as humanly possible. Any ideas? I was thinking about going to the store and getting sleeping pills and taking them as soon as I wake up. I’ve been trying to take cough syrup but it only makes me drowsy not actually sleepy. I’ve been laying in bed for hours with my eyes closed after waking up trying to go to sleep but my body won’t let me.