this is kinda weird but i don’t know how to word it properly.
whenever i sleep next to someone (literally just sleeping, not sex), i start feeling really uncomfortable. my body gets all weird, like i have to pee constantly or like something’s building up inside me and i wanna push it out. sometimes i start thinking about sexual stuff i don’t even wanna think about. it’s not even horny, just… uncomfortable.
i always end up sleeping opposite of them (like my head near their feet) and wrap myself in covers like a barrier. especially if they’re a guy, i get super anxious about being touched by accident — like their hand brushing me or feeling their bulge or whatever. even if i trust them, it just makes me tense.
i’ve had some past stuff happen to me (sa’d) so idk if it’s trauma-related or what. has anyone else felt this? how do you deal with it? i’m tired of feeling gross or on edge just trying to sleep.
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Why are you sleeping next to men in non sexual contexts lol
It could absolutely be trauma-related. Your body may be associating proximity with discomfort because of past experiences. Maybe starting with small steps, like sleeping further apart, could help ease the tension.
It is perfectly okay to feel how you feel. Trust your body, and don’t feel pressured to be ‘normal.’ Therapy or journaling might help you explore these feelings more safely.
It sounds like you are really in tune with your body, which is great. Healing from trauma takes time, so be patient with yourself. Gradually learning to trust physical closeness again could help over time.
I’m confused. How and why do you find yourself sleeping in the same bed with people you don’t want that close to you? Can’t you just tell them you’d rather sleep alone?
I get that. It’s like your body is on high alert. You might want to explore some trauma informed therapy or talk to a counsellor about how you are feeling.
Sleep zzz