Basically, I’ve recently been dumped out of the blue and left for another woman. I’ve done a lot of healing to the point where I generally feel better about my life and no longer love that man or want him back.
However, when I through about putting myself out there after six months of healing (partially it took so long because my mother got cancer in between) I had a panic attack and all my pain about the breakup came back.
I feel like I have a big scarlet letter on my back that says “ONE MAN’s TRASH, HER LAST BF HAD NO PROBLEM LEAVING HER.” And, it’s not like men are asking me out left and right or
online so I don’t have a lot of evidence that I am valuable on the dating market.
Has anyone else gone through this and found love? It’s such a hard thing. It’s harder than my mother’s early stage breast cancer because there I know that I am doing everything I can and am being a strong support and that her cancer is not my fault. With dating I feel like a rejected outcast loser who will never be loved. I’m 33.