I start a new job at the end of the month in FP&A, was in SEC Reporting at my last company. Before I worked at a corporate my coworkers describe as “one of the top 5% most difficult corporates to work at” and I really struggled with anxiety while working there. I met up with some former coworkers who also left and they told me they’re not stressed anymore after leaving and they love their new jobs. My boss walked me out after offering severance and told me “I want you to know how much I did for you” in a stern voice, and that the job was sink or swim, and when he was in consulting at Big4 this company was extreme compared to other companies. And if I wanted to talk he was available. He also told me wherever I had my career I would be successful. I thanked him for his leadership and left quite upset. I was doing 16 hour days some days in busy seasons too so that wore on me pretty hard.
I tried 3 therapists but I was always super compulsive about information since I felt like was supposed to read everyone’s mind at the job. I was finally understanding the job and I was PIP’ed and given severance 6 weeks later. My former boss’s boss from another department reached out after I left and told me I was a great employee and it’s not the same without me. I took the severance, and a month later landed a better job at a more stable company, got a better title and am now making 21-45% more depending on bonus payout for the same amount of work.
I feel like I can’t let go these compulsive habits and want to be successful in my new job and this last job was super painful. I know as long as I ask questions, take notes, do knowledge transfer meetings, and prioritize I’ll be just fine. However, I’m really stressed out and have a fear I’ll sink again and it’s really driving me to compulsive behaviors/vices so idk what to do.
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I start a new job at the end of the month in FP&A, was in SEC Reporting at my last company. Before I worked at a corporate my coworkers describe as “one of the top 5% most difficult corporates to work at” and I really struggled with anxiety while working there. I met up with some former coworkers who also left and they told me they’re not stressed anymore after leaving and they love their new jobs. My boss walked me out after offering severance and told me “I want you to know how much I did for you” in a stern voice, and that the job was sink or swim, and when he was in consulting at Big4 this company was extreme compared to other companies. And if I wanted to talk he was available. He also told me wherever I had my career I would be successful. I thanked him for his leadership and left quite upset. I was doing 16 hour days some days in busy seasons too so that wore on me pretty hard.
I tried 3 therapists but I was always super compulsive about information since I felt like was supposed to read everyone’s mind at the job. I was finally understanding the job and I was PIP’ed and given severance 6 weeks later. My former boss’s boss from another department reached out after I left and told me I was a great employee and it’s not the same without me. I took the severance, and a month later landed a better job at a more stable company, got a better title and am now making 21-45% more depending on bonus payout for the same amount of work.
I feel like I can’t let go these compulsive habits and want to be successful in my new job and this last job was super painful. I know as long as I ask questions, take notes, do knowledge transfer meetings, and prioritize I’ll be just fine. However, I’m really stressed out and have a fear I’ll sink again and it’s really driving me to compulsive behaviors/vices so idk what to do.
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