(TW: mentions of suicide)
It‘s probably worth mentioning that it was an online friend.
I had known him for around 4/5 months, and we were online all the time, every day. We chatted every day on discord for hours at a time, played minecraft, messed around, all that stuff. We were best friends, on both sides and were always there for eachother. But one day things started to go downhill, and we got into lots of fights. I once woke up with my DMs spammed with insults, appearently it was because of some stupid thing he missunderstood. It was just not fun anymore. A month later or so after a pretty bad argument he got extremely mad at me and unfriended me on every platform. I found him on a minecraft server we often played on, and asked if there was any way to fix stuff. Instead he started to spam how he was going to hang himself, how much he hated me and that I shouldn’t have forced him not to, and then left.
For some context, when stuff was going well and we were friends he told me he wanted to commit, so I let him vent, comforted him n all that. I guess I „forced“ him not do it, according to him.
But at that time I just ignored him, thought he was guilt tripping me especially after he just ended our friendship. I didn‘t think he might actually end it, he was just extremely pissed (It was because I had found an OP glitch in a server he was playing in, and he didn‘t like that, and somehow it escalated.)
It‘s been almost three months since, but he hasn‘t been online a single time, on none of his accounts. I‘m scared he might‘ve actually gone through with it and I feel extremely guilty. I don‘t even know why, it‘s been months and I have no reason to miss him as much as I do, especially considering I’ve only known him online. More importantly I hope he‘s still alive.
Sorry for my bad english, I‘m not a native speaker. And sorry if this is the wrong place to post this, probably deleting later. Any advice on how to move on and to forget about him would be very appreciated.
Tl;dr: I kept getting into arguments with my best (online) friend, so after he unfriended me he told me he was going to hang himself and left. Hasn‘t been online since, and for some reason I feel guilty and worried asf and kinda miss him. Need advice on how to move on