I’m a pretty quiet and focused person, I would also like to say i genuinely care about other people’s feelings and try to be nice as possible. I have a pretty large group of friends probably over 15. Most of them are pretty nice to eachother.
Anyway back in year 7 and 8 I remember everyone treating me nicely and I had no problems, back then I had a really bad haircut and my appearance didn’t really matter. Moving on to year 10 not to be big headed but I had a massive glowup (according to others) and past then many girls have said I’m attractive and had crushes on me. Ever since the “glowup” my friends have treated me very differently.
There’s 3 ways my friends treat me.
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I get ignored and it feels like they have some secret hate towards me (half my friend group)
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They look for anything in my life to make fun of (including family) and target my African side because I’m mixed, but also act like friends at the same time(these consist of a good amount of my main friends), These are the ones that I know would fucking love to see me fail and get embarrassed. They think it’s banter but it’s always me that gets targeted, it really feels like they are obsessed with me and it gets really fucking annoying at a point after they constantly do it and go WAY too far with their “jokes”. I already had a talk with one of the people who do this and they said they do it just because I’m “chill” and they think I don’t care. I probably do come off like this but whenever I do get angry and do care they absolutely love it and constantly try to get a reaction out of me again so like I can’t get angry and I can’t be chill.
And 3. They are nice to me and feel like real friends (these are the ones I’ve been friends with for a long time and also are a couple of my main friends).
Just to mention I go to a private school and I’m in the final stretch so I basically cannot move schools. Im nice to everyone and I’m also quiet so I don’t know why I receive this hate, is it jealousy and if so how do I stop them because i feel so stuck now and they’re just eating into me. It’s not like i even do good in school compared to them yet they feel the need to focus on my result like their life depends on it. Anyway sry for the long read im just sick of it.
tl;dr: I’m a pretty quiet and reserved person who tries to be nice to everyone. After a big glow-up in year 10, half my friend group either ignores me, constantly targets me with “banter” that goes too far (even about family/race), or treats me like a real friend. Moving schools is very difficult as I’m in the final stretch to finish high school and I don’t know why I get so much hate—feels like jealousy but it’s eating at me.