I [18F] cut my neck on purpose when I was 17. I know I’m in the wrong.

When I [18F] was 17, I was standing alone in my kitchen. I was cutting vegetables to cook for my lunch. My mom and dad walked into the kitchen, talking about where they wanted to go for vacation. I wasn’t focused on them. I kept hearing someone talk to me in my ear. I heard it calling my name. I don’t know why it happened, but I turned to my parents. I said that ‘it wasn’t going to hurt’. My dad asked me what I meant. My mom looked confused. I held the knife, and I harmed myself. I fell to the ground, and my parents screamed. I don’t remember much, other than the fact my dad held a towel against my throat. I woke up in the hospital. Many trips to the psychiatrist later, and I was diagnosed with early onset schizophrenia. This happened a couple months ago. I’m now on medication. I’m so lucid most days. My parents locked all the cabinets. My extended family don’t know about this. When anyone asks about my scar, I just tell them that I accidently got scratched by a sharp object. I know what I did was wrong.