i (19f) feel like my bf (19m) doesnt like me unless hes horny.

me and my bf have been together over a year now. it wasnt always like this, but as of recent (the last few months) i feel like he only wants to be around me and only wants to talk to me when he “wants” me. we have kind of been fighting a bit, because of my worsening mental health as well as other factors, and it has started to feel like he doesnt and wont love me unless i do everything he asks me to.

we talk over discord, so when he is being needy in a sexual manner its difficult for me to really do anything, and i am asexual and really opposed to sexual activity, but im the type of person who tells myself it doesnt matter if it is scary or if i hate doing it because it makes him happy, and he knows this. hes asked for me to put my camera on in calls and show him my bare thighs, my ass with only underwear on, even to see my feet and ask me to pretend im “stepping on him” or “rubbing them against his d*ck”. after times like these i sometimes have started to sob and curl up into a ball barely able to breathe, completely emotionally shut down and space out, barely responding because of it, or in the worst case scenario it led me into a weird state where i was laying frozen on my bed barely even there mentally, and whispering for him to ” help me make it stop”.

when hes like that, its the only time recently he hasnt been annoyed at me for being the way i am or hasnt yelled at me. to a point i genuinely consider coercing him into feeling that way just so he’ll be happy with me, even if it means i have to do something that hurts me for it to happen. even if i have to cry and feel even worse after, i just want him to love me. and if he doesnt i just want him to tell me or to leave me because i dont want to be a burden on him.

tl,dr; bf and i have been tense recently unless he wants me in a sexual way even though i dont like that stuff and i think he only loves me when he is like that because otherwise im just a bother.