I (19f) started a new job for the summer and within a few weeks I realized (by all of my coworkers telling me) that a guy I worked with… Bryan (fake name) was flirting with me. I didn’t really know everyone yet but I already knew who I wanted it to be. When he came into work and my manager said “that’s Bryan” I was really happy that I don’t obviously blush because literally just looking at him increased my heart rate. I followed him on instagram that night and he messaged me almost immediately after. for 2 nights we just texted and called until he then invited me for dinner. It’s late after we both get off so it’s really casual but even then we talked till 4am in his car. He texts me a bit after questioning if he should have kissed me (yes. He should have.). The next date was… well a hookup. Because I decided a bottle of Tito’s was 2nd date material. It was the best sex of my life tbh. I’m drunk as fuck, family guy is still playing on the tv, and he’s nuts deep in me. I don’t finish but it didn’t really matter…. I immediately knew I could never do that again (so I did it… well again and again). It’s been like 3 weeks and we are still doing this weird situationship stuff. Ik he doesn’t want a relationship. I tried breaking it off because I liked him and he said I was supposed to??? I don’t think it’s supposed to be like this though. I think about him all the time. I’ve been up all night tonight thinking of him. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, all day at work I’m thinking of him, every second I’m trying to find an excuse to mention him. Sometimes just thinking of him turns me into Niagara Falls. I leave in 2 weeks and I’ve never wanted to stay in my hometown more. I’ve also never wanted to leave faster.
TLDR: got into a summer situationship with my coworker. And (istg I don’t do this) I fell for him (please get me out🙏🏻). Idk what to do. Do I wait it out? Break if off? Try and commit (I don’t see that happening on his part lmao). I’ve just never felt this way before and I’m not liking it…
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Probably best to cut it off.