We have been together for 6 years, originally met online (please don’t judge) and have met several times since. In the first year of our relationship, he had crushes towards his female friends and confided in his friend that he wants to be more than friends with them. I found out which led me to spiral, asked him to stop watching porn out of insecurity. He told me he stopped, but throughout the next 2 years, I would find him lying about it and always watching porn through his search history (gave me full access to it btw) This broke me and my self esteem.
The way I view myself now is completely different, the way I view his relationships with females is different. I used to preach about how females and males can be just friends since I’ve had a lot of guy friends, and he made me not trust him with any girls. His choice to not be friends with any girls just so y’all know. Now, I feel like a part of me still resents him. I feel dumb, it was so long ago, it was when we were teenagers, but I just feel like I can’t ever trust him the same. What should I do? Will this feeling ever go away? It’s been so long but I don’t think I’ll be able to trust him and think that he’s not watching porn or fantasizing about other women in his day to day life.
Any advice is appreciated!
TL;DR Can’t trust boyfriend after he lied throughout the first 2-3 years of our relationship about stopping watching porn
Comments
Unfortunately, once trust is broken it almost never comes back.
trust and loyalty are something important to me and it should be to everyone
once you broke those it’s over
no matter what happens or say or try to manipulate into Doing or saying
it would never be the same
i really hope you can find answer you trying to find but as a guy myself
it’s hard to continue with someone who broke that trust and loyalty
(btw if his female friends trying to continue that step with him and make it easy for him to go along that’s even worse because even if .. if you trust him again you won’t be able to completely trust his surroundings)