Hello. Im a 22m who has an obsession with reporting illegal sites including children and animals. It all started when I tried to force myself to jack off to a Pic of a girl on Google because of peer pressure from my friend. I want to make things right and started mass reporting these websites. I got many taken down. But I feel like I’m not doing enough. These instructive thoughts are getting worse (note I was abused for literally my whole life physically and mentally, I’m also handicapped so if something does happen to be, I have to pay and that’s ok!) Anyways reddit. Help me the fuck out here. Also I don’t nobody being empathetic in the comments cuz im asking for help here
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I don’t see why you need help you’re doing gods work, getting these illegal websites taken down where creeps go to look at kids and animals ? You are a fucking hero. You’re doing perfect dude, lots of people just scroll past the cites letting these kids and animals be subjected to abuse. You’re amazing dude also I’m unsure what you need help with ?
Edit: after rereading the post and going through some of my notes, op may have ocd although my original comment was supporting what op was doing I advise against supporting someone’s actions who’s obsessing over something.
2.encouraging compulsions can lead to a cycle of doing this daily everyday which wouldn’t be good for ops health. As we see they are asking for help with this habit.
Believe me I love what op is doing but it is NOT healthy for them and they should seek help. I do advise against any other comments encouraging op, that could cause them to spiral.
im not a licensed psychologist but I do study psychology and op’s habit does fit in the description of ocd. I just made an observation based on what I seen. I do suggest op gets a evaluation ASAP
Your a good person
waitttt you’re literally doing gods work? do not feel bad and pls keep doing it! To hell with pedos and child abusers!
If you think it’s become an unhealthy obsession that’s affecting your ability to live your life, have normal relationships, work, sleep, take care of yourself etc. then talk to a therapist about it. Reddit isn’t qualified to help you.
if its a genuine problem then you need to work with a therapist. it sounds like ocd to me
I mean obviously you’re doing a good thing to help the world. But if it’s to the point that you spend time hunting these sites instead of eating, sleeping, socializing with loved ones, or going to work, then you might have a problem with OCD.
If that’s the case then you should book an appointment with a telehealth therapist, to talk about what’s going on.
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What is wrong with what? You’re doing by right and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that.
You don’t need help. You’re doing the right thing by saving millions of children and animals
As someone with trauma induced OCD, this sounds a lot like OCD. The best treatment for it is exposure response prevention (ERP) therapy through a trained professional. Please seek therapy for this. The intrusive thoughts don’t go away and the behavior you’re doing that is in response to them, makes them come back more. It’s a horrible cycle that I wish on no one so I’m very sorry you also deal with it.
First of all you need new friends if you haven’t got them already.
Second of all, while I see a lot of people praising you for doing “gods work” what I think is important is understanding that while yes, reporting these sites is technically doing a good thing, it is causing you suffering and is most likely an unhealthy mental compulsion.
This also isn’t considering the potential legal problems associated with this depending on the way you’re reporting. Make sure that you are NEVER accessing the content directly or creating accounts/downloading/sharing anything. Just finding the websites link and submitting it via CyberTip is going to be enough, and it keeps you 100% safe.
You are not a bad person nor should you be angry/upset at yourself. As someone who has OCD I find what you’re feeling to be similar and I would recommend looking into typical treatment methods or even shared experiences from others, or even getting therapy if it’s available to you.
If I could recommend anything for your specific case, you could always filter these intrusive thoughts productively by learning about how things like this pop up in the first place or how these websites stay up! Cybersecurity topics cover a lot of this (plus it’s pretty damn interesting, but I might be biased here) and would probably help soothe that part of your mind by clearing up misunderstandings/gaining knowledge on topics like this without doing anything potentially bad.
Internet crime is a huge problem, especially for children, and there are many many ways to help, even if it is just gaining knowledge on how to stay safe online for anyone who might need it along life.
This is not the first time I’ve seen something like this and you ARE able to heal from it. Stay safe!
Is it possible you could have OCD?
Here, I have an incentive for you to stop:
To the best of my understanding, YOU are actively breaking the law by seeking out “illegal sites including children”. The law doesn’t distinguish whether you’re doing it with good or nefarious intent.
If you really want to keep at it, get a job with an FBI program. Otherwise, drop it.
I mean unless it bothers you and you feel like it’s affecting your life, why are you worried? You’re making the world a better place
No. Stay obsessed with that. That’s called having a purpose. And thank you for what you do.
An intrusive thought from ocd likely won’t go away without meds.
First of all, wtf, that’s traumatising and I hope to god you aren’t friends with that person anymore (why would they do or want to put you through something that vile?). I’m so sorry.
Secondly, something that’s helped me manage compulsions in the past is redirecting that urgency into something tactile and creative—like crafting, painting, sewing, gardening. When you feel that spiral start, redirect your hands and attention into that hobby. It won’t work overnight, but if you keep doing it—day after day—it becomes habit. It’s grounding.
Lastly, and I know this might be hard depending on access, but please try to speak to a professional. Reddit isn’t a substitute for care, and what you’re going through deserves real support.
You are not disgusting. You are not evil. You’re someone who is clearly trying to do the right thing while fighting your own guilt and shame. But that mere fact that you feel shame and guilt and self-hatred indicates your humanity, that you know right from wrong. So you are not broken, you are human. And you deserve help.