I 23F have been going through a lot the past year. I won’t go into specifics too much. However, I am currently unemployed and super broke. My 22M fiancé makes decent money and hasn’t said this is a problem. He said that as long as he isn’t paying for a bunch of extra things, he doesn’t have a problem with it. I don’t spend a lot of money normally anyway. The guilt in this is eating me alive. He’s paying for all our bills. I’m not used to this, and he keeps saying it’s not a problem, and I know it isn’t. How do I overcome feeling this way so I don’t start problems that don’t exist. My father is kind of garbage and uses people for money. This is how I feel right now because I’m not holding up my share. I’ve also been in abusive relationships in the past, where I was the only person working and paying for everything. I genuinely don’t know how to navigate how I’m feeling. I feel pretty worthless, which has started making me anxious that he deserves better, and it’s affected my sex drive, which makes me feel worse as a partner. I clean everything, which isn’t much because I enjoy cleaning. I’m currently looking for jobs. Which is difficult. I don’t have a degree, and I have a misdemeanor which is the dumbest thing on the planet. I stopped working with his support because I was so tired of the job I had been working. I know a lot of people don’t feel weird about this sort of thing, and it happens in committed relationships where sometimes only one person is working. I don’t know what to do. My question is, how do I get over the negative feelings towards myself about this?
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I think you should definitely get back to working as soon as you can, focus on getting a good job and let him know how grateful you are for helping you through this situation. You are not leeching or using him for money, you are simply receiving help, if you were a bad person you would not have made this thread. You get over it by getting back to earning your own money, simple as that.
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Perhaps show him that you are working towards something, be it getting a job, or going to college to get a qualification in something you could see yourself doing? Maybe you could do a business qualification so you can start your own cleaning company?