Yeah, it’s basically what the title says. My family is small, it’s only my 1 siblings, and my father. We’re all close, we live together. But we all have our own lives, we’re not really that close as we all use to be anymore.
I’m tired of dating, tired of men lying about stuff. My own father is a chronic liar when it comes to some things. Maybe he’s ruined my hope for any guy who comes along, because I honestly don’t think there’s any guy who will tell the truth, and won’t lie to my face. My ex lied to me about stuff. My own father didn’t treat my mother right, especially when she got sick during the last few years she was alive. My mother said a few things to me about men that made me think that I never wanted to date anyone or have kids ever in my life time.
My first relationship made me realize I want kids, and that ended after a year. As crazy as this is, I really wish I had a kid during that time so that I’d have someone to love and spoil right now. Someone who also loves me. I’m so tired of being alone. I’ve done so much mental work after that relationship ended 3ish years ago, and I’ve seen how majority of people are nowadays and I’ve just given up hope.
Anyone else like this?
Tl;dr I literally just wish I had a kid to love and to spoil right now. 🙁
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Christ, your 24. You have 5+ year to do that. Enjoy being young and not tied down. Don’t settle for some shit head because you want a baby. You’ll regret it.
A child is not filler for a hole in your life, it’s a monumental decision that creates a whole new human and has to be for the right reasons. It sounds like some therapy might be in order to address some ongoing issues, but having a baby now, alone, to wallpaper over some cracks in your life and make you feel less alone would be unwise. You have do much time to get yourself to a place where you want to a child for the right reasons and hopefully have a partner to go through that with.