Long story short: 3 years ago in university, I met this girl. She looked nice so I texted her to go out. Pretty much she said ‘no’ so I said fine and let it go. In the months that followed, she met some people from my group of friends and we became basically part of the same group, so we started getting to know each other better. In the next months, couple of friends in the group were really sure that she liked me, but since I had already tried when we met, I decided to not try again.
Anyways, I should note that this girl has really, really poor social skills in general and she is really close to herself. I should also note that at some point she mentioned that she is bisexual but I have never seen her showing any interest when it comes to guys, she rejected every guy who flirted or asked her out (including me at the beginning), and in general I always had the impression that she is actually fully gay and she just likes girls.
Anyways, last year we came kinda close, I was perhaps the only person that she is close with and yeah I started really liking her but I didn’t say anything because a) she had already rejected me at the beginning and b) I was convinced that she doesn’t like guys at all.
In the previous summer she left for Erasmus, we kept texting every week and she came back in February. We went out towards end of February and I just decided to ask her if she was fully gay or not. She said she likes guys as well and then then I confessed to her that for the last year I really like her, that I also missed her a lot while she was away and that I never said anything because I thought she is gay. I told her that if she doesn’t like me if it’s ok, she can just say it and there are no hard feelings or anything. She said that’s not the case, but that she hasn’t tried anything with anyone, she doesn’t know what she is into and what she is not and she fears that if things don’t work between us, it will ruin our relationship. She said she needs to take some time to think about it and she is gonna let me know.
After that I thought there is nothing more for me to say or do, so I just decided to leave it and move on so we basically didn’t talk for a while.
We met again in St Patrick’s day, but because we were with other people we just talked briefly about irrelevant stuff, not bringing anything about us on the table. After that I went for a trip with some friends and a few days before the trip she texted me if I could get her some tobacco because there, it would be cheaper. I just said ok, but I guess I didn’t really like that the only reason to text me was just to ask me to buy her cheap cigarettes, whereas she hasn’t said anything about us and what she wants.
Anyways, after that we didn’t speak or see each other, and surprisingly and funnily (because I saw her on my dream) yesterday night she texted me, sending me a random meme from a movie as a joke.
Now, I’m a bit lost. I don’t understand what she wants and most importantly, I don’t understand why instead of just saying it (ok I know social skills are not her strength but still), she tries to break the ice by sending silly shit. If she doesn’t like me I just want to move on, I don’t like it since I honestly like her, but that’s life. I feel that asking her to tell me what’s going with us? It’s like I’m trying to convince her to date me and I don’t like that.
TL;DR: I really like a girl, she said she needs some time to think about what she wants, but she hasn’t said anything back to me.