Some events in the early and middle parts of my relationship with my wife have recently come to light that have aroused my suspicions. I don’t want to go too far into detail, but they involve continued or renewed contact with former lovers, as well as a disturbing story about something that happened before we met.
I was never suspicious of my wife before; she always struck me as an honest and ethical person. That view has taken a hit, but I still love her and know she loves me. Though some of her known actions and her explanations thereof are highly questionable, I don’t have proof she cheated, or wanted to. The best evidence she didn’t is that she stayed with me, though she never really had to. A lot of things happen in 22 years, and perhaps the bad things seem worse when you learn about them all at once.
Reading posts about suspicions of infidelity on Reddit is discouraging, though, as they never have happy endings. But surely even reasonable suspicions turn out to be false sometimes, right?
TL;DR: I have learned some upsetting things about my wife’s past behavior, and have nagging doubts about what I don’t know. But I want to believe the worst isn’t true.