I am a heavily critical person, I can literally find flaws in everything, including myself. I dislike things, people, sports, activities people equally. I dislike most illogical elements, I know it might not be completely logical of me to say so, but I really dislike social structure, any sort of organization.
I have to eat my words always, my first thoughts to anything in general is always negative, but I almost always end up uttering something nice.
Funnily enough, I end updoingw activities still, but with a heavy distate generally. Sometimes, I go on 10 minute rant internally in my head but never show my anger to anyone.
I don’t have anything to say, just a random post really triggered me and I am here, I mentally ranted and really criticized about the post.
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I too suffer from being critical of myself and others.
My brain tends to be in negative mode so my initial thoughts are often negative. It happens a lot when I’m scrolling on Instagram and seeing people I went to high school with living lives that I’ve dreamt for myself. Sometimes I feel bad when I criticize people and can’t help but think that I’m attracting negativity and blocking my blessings.
The good thing is that we’re aware of it which means we can work on changing it…if we want to.
I have that internal voice too. It’s the inner critic that sees the imperfection in everything in me and the outside world. It comes from a place of intense fear. That inner critic is deathly afraid of not being good enough, being ousted by society, and finding fault in others who can be ousted from the social hierarchy to maintain its own social standing.
Internal family systems therapy can really help connecting with this part and giving it the safety it needs to relax.
Literally same, I think a LOT before i speak, probably too much and I just never speak my mind or anything like that. Even here on Reddit I’m scared to voice my opinions lmao because people will downvote you like crazy. And I also go on long rants to myself when people hurt me/make me angry, but rarely actually confront them about it