For context. I grew up in a household that did not acknowledge the existence of gay people. Once I figured out that gay people did in fact exist, I was told it was wrong. That I would go to hell if I was gay. My father was a pastor, and this added to this pressure to conform.
I never had to worry about this affecting ME until I fell in love with a girl. I’ve always resisted sociatal norms, by the way I dress and the things I like, due to me being autistic. But while my parents could accept that, I know they can never accept me being gay.
Which apparently I am. I (16F) met a girl last year who I’ll call Beth (15F). She is openly lesbian however she’s never been in a relationship. These past few months, I’ve fallen for her. BAD. I’ve tried praying it away, tried pretending it doesn’t exist, but it does.
And I told her and everyone else around me that I’m straight.
She fills up every thought I have, and its killing me. We would always jokingly flirt but now my side of that is real (obviously she is unaware).
Anyway, that is all. Just needed to get that off my chest.
Comments
There’s a good chance she knows you like her but doesn’t want to push you until you come out to her
There is no reference in the bible relating to same sex relationships in women, some of the more conservative Christians refer to Romans 1:26–27, but this doesn’t make any mention of lesbian sex. Christians who say otherwise think they know the mind of God which according to Isaiah 55:8–9 is impossible.
If you believe in god then you know that he is all knowing and created you knowing that you will fall for this girl. Therefore your feelings for her cannot be wrong.
You don’t have to come out to anyone until you’re ready, if ever, if you do I hope your parents surprise you and are understanding, they may take time to come around, and they may say stupid stuff that they will regret later, remember they are human too.
But if they don’t and behave like asshats you will not be alone as there are millions of us on your side. Also forgiving religious people for their homophobia is one of the funnest things you can do, it drives them nuts.
I hope it all works out for you! As someone who was out in Hs, feel free to message me!